i am crazy.

i know i'm blogged about this before but today i just reaffirmed the fact that i'm crazy. i spent 4 hrs in the library and kid you not i spent 45 minutes figuring out a MATH PROBLEM. not just any math problem, but a finance IRR problem- you had to figure out the percentage of the cash flows or whatever and instead of just looking in the book i did trial & error, which was ok, except since i am so obsessive-compulsive i figured out the percenage to ALL 9 DECIMAL PLACES by trial and error. 13.70447422%.

i am crazy.

random

ready for this? here we GO!...

I got this little book with prayers in it for Christmas last year from MissLiss- joy had the same one diff. version and i liked it so i was excited...then i didn't read it for 8 months, until now. the other night i read the next one in order and it was a prayer to God for the gift he has given me - some thing, passion of mine, that I have that is unique to me and important to who i am, and that I want to know what it is and want to bless people with it, not impress people with it. at the time i thought, 'uh, yeah that's AWESOME! perfectly applicable to my life at the present moment [thanks God]. I said to God, "hey this is really cool...i really want to know what my gift in life is, the thing you've blessed me with that i can share with other people...maybe it will give me some insight in to what i wanna do with the rest of my life. maybe it will be the thing i will do with the rest of my life." so then i got excited, because this is something i really, really, REALLY want to figure out. And i told God, 'yeah can you let me know what that is because it would be really sweet.' Then i re-read the page to make sure i was reading it right and the words "impress" and "bless" stuck out at me. If i knew what this gift was at this time in my life, i would probably wave it around and people and do the whole 'look what i can do' in a little female 'stewart voice' from mad tv...i probably woulnd't be blessing people with it. so, i said 'yeah, God, i think you do know what you are doing. sorry for doubting you!'

SO today on the way to church I mentioned all this to Jules and was telling her how I hope that my 'gift' will clue me in on what i should do the rest of my life, and you know what she said? "So you think this 'gift' is going to be a clue to what you are meant to do with the rest of your life ... good luck on that one." haha. ohh it was hilarious!

jam hands

I know i said this quote to a few people but can't remember who so in order to remind me what it is, i thought i would post it online: "I don't even like kids. They always have jam on their hands. Even when there isn't any jam in the house, they get jam on their hands. I can't deal with jam hands." -Luke from Gilmore Girls. I like this quote a lot, because it is funny and usually actually true. You want some good, intellectual jokes and very witty banter? watch gilmore girls. and it's not just for girls - if i met a guy that liked gilmore girls, psh sign me up buddy now THAT's a man.

MAJOR irony

this is a sample of a time-zone map in a book I had to buy for my newswriting class. This book is called The Associated Press [AP] Stylebook. This book exists so journalists have a place to go to check the correct spellings and references for their stories. Don't you think a book that makes sure journalists don't make mistakes probably shouldn't make a HUGE mistake like the one shown in the picture?

hint: look at our state...

leave.s.now

i snapped this picture this morning as i was leaving for vermillion - make up your mind, nature! :]

life

One quick trip home, and it seems that life has turned more serious very quickly. Jobs, houses, internships, moving, careers, farming, money-money-money. I feel like we are constantly discussing money, which is funny, because I never have any and it seems no one else does, either.

On the road of my life, I am currently cresting a huge hill- basically a mountain, the biggest of my life so far - at the top of the mountain I am halfway through college. The journey down is slowly starting- it will be bumpy, fast, fun and memorable. It's kind of hard to focus on the ride because I see the fork in the road looming ahead: graduation. The biggest fork in the road so far. The biggest bump in my road will be what the heck I'm going to do this summer. Project ... internship ... can the two be combined? that would be a sweet deal. From my family's point of view, it all comes down to money, which is a factor in the decision. Maybe I just need to decide how big a factor money will play.

passion

jordan, jules, lys and i were all just sitting in the living room at the FH, and we were talking about how crappy we feel when we don't exceed at the things we need to/want to (eg: alyssa and grades, jules and art). i was then finally able to express in words what i have been feeling all thru college, but mainly this semester- i really don't know what that one thing is in my life that i will do anything to not suck at. you following me here? i don't know my passion in life (yet). right now, i guess you could say it's the movement @ USD, more specifically the CRU meeting on campus. i will work on that before any of my homework and on a friday afternoon i love nothing more than to organize things and make to do list and dream about what we could come up with in the future. that's all fine and good for now, but what about the future? i will end this abrubtly because i'm tired and don't want to think about it any more, because it depresses me.